Court Records :: Single Losers Society RP : General Roleplay

Hello Society. I didn't think I would ever want to whine to forum people about RL issues, especially not so soon, but here I come bearing the story of my shit day :(

I've attempted sleeping most of it away, I've had a longer talk to my mom, but I still can't shrug it off by usual means. I'm nearing my graduation from - well ... it's the highest form of pre-Uni education here so I wouldn't call it a regular high school. Almost six months and I'm out of the slaughterhouse. Let me tell you, I've almost always disliked school. I'm worse than Maggey Byrde, the worst things happen to me, I get blamed for many things, I land in the most awkward scenarios. I get randomly beaten up on the street, sued over stuff I didn't do, break bones at any given chance, get sick a LOT lot, and the list goes on and on. I could never find myself truly fitting in with people my age, either, which is why from age 12 on I've reached out for contact with adults, mostly on the internet. I am now 18 years old.

Going back to today, the students here organise their graduation and everything related (some type of yearbook and a shitload of events. Christmas events, carnival events, spring balls, prom etc. etc. etc., all of which I have to attend as a musician. I get grades for performances. Believe me I'd skip them without hesitating a single second otherwise) themselves, and the crucial part here is the yearbook.

After a day of embarrassing myself in class repeatedly (or, rather, being embarrassed by the professor - for not being able to answer a handful questions because I was sick and could not attend the previous literature class), I was asked to retype a handwritten exam. One of my teachers asked me to do so, as I'd written it with 'inappropriate device' - a biro instead of an ink pen. Big fucking deal :) My right wrist is broken and I'm having a hard type writing with my hand. Not that you can't read my handwriting, for a broken wrist that's about as perfectly readable as it can get, but she's a sarcastic piece of arsepie. Thankfully, she lets me type it in the end. Underneath the keys of the laptop I was given however, algae are growing and long lost organisms are seemingly resurrected. Hell, even a unicorn might've poked through the screen anytime, so dirty was it.

I finish, bring back the laptop - just in order to once again get humiliated in front of class.

Back to the yearbook. Students were asked to fill out a form on themselves, then comment on every other student of your year for it. I couldn't help but browse some of the lists. Not to see what's written about me, but to see what people are writing about each other.

I was shocked. I felt grossed out.
These comments are meant to appear in a yearbook, something you open every five years, look back and remember the so-called good times.

The comments were hideous. Many labelled themselves 'lovely', 'nice', 'tolerant' and 'open-minded' whereas they put "Your grey vest looks SHIT!!", "is an arrogant twat", "utter slut", "embarrasses himself daily", "chews her nails..disgusting!!!" next to other students' names. I felt so ridiculous..I..I've even found only good things to say about complete beasts.

It probably doesn't sound like such a big deal, but little Ethed's severely distorted image of the world just broke further, and I feel like beating all of them up. Especially when they smile at you face to face, then throw bloody shuriken at your back. I suppose I can be happy I'll never have to see them again after graduating, but I just can't shake this off. It's like discovering a rumor. Fucking kindergarten... I feel so hurt. Unfortunately that's not all that happened today, but this post is long enough already :( tldr kek there's more stories of hospitals and family problems but that's enough for now

Teenage drama? I know.

U-uhm... h-hiya everyone. My name's Crystal, but you can call me whatever you want, so long as you point to me or something so I know who you're talking to. I'm a 17 year old female Single Loser.

My problem is, I have a... really hard time trusting people. I have a lot of reasons, but... I'm... not sure I'm willing or able to talk about them here. No offense to you guys, but yeah... I'm just... really inept at talking to people and trusting, even online.

Er... is there a discount for life-long memberships? If so, sign me up. n_n; I'm not goin' anywhere anytime soon...

Err, thanks for making me feel welcome, guys and gals. ^^; I... I appreciate it, I really do! Uhm... -offers everyone cake- ^^;

Er, Kyo... is it alright if I ask what exactly happened with Insho, or is that too personal and I'm being intrusive?

Ethed wrote:

holy shit

my yearbook was a piece of shit as well, they topok out my quote below my senior pic because the people in there hatred me and i never did anything wrong to them. my quote was "you cant call it a coin without a tails." something that i came up with. it means you cant have the bad with the good.

and then there was the eidolon that i was a part of. the bitch who was president of it made it so only her friend's art and writings would be put in it. anything else she deemed crappy, espesially my writings, hell the stuff i submitted i was told by my english teacher(who founded it) that it was material best suited for that.

my yearbook was a piece of shit as well, they topok out my quote below my senior pic because the people in there hatred me and i never did anything wrong to them. my quote was "you cant call it a coin without a tails." something that i came up with. it means you cant have the bad with the good.

and then there was the eidolon that i was a part of. the bitch who was president of it made it so only her friend's art and writings would be put in it. anything else she deemed crappy, espesially my writings, hell the stuff i submitted i was told by my english teacher(who founded it) that it was material best suited for that.

Good day everyone :>

raiku wrote:

Ethed wrote:

Yeah. Originally me and a friend signed up for it, and suddenly the list was not only filled by other people/bitchz, we also got pushed out - without notice. People without layout knowledge or how a yearbook's supposed to look. For all I know they may scan in some handwritten stuff and reprint it a hundred stuff for all students. And that's not badmouthing, unfortunately, that's how it's always been when they have put themselves in charge. They managed to ruin one of our shows/gigs by assuming the roles of moderators, and I mean ruin.
Never done anything wrong to people either. The mentality of most students here doesn't reach beyond parties, alcohol and a new relationship every other week. Since that's not me, I'm having a hard time. Also, intelligence (not that I claim any XD) is looked down upon.

(Insert something very similar to my High School experience here)

D: The real world...at least where I am, isn't so great. I wish I was back in high school, because then I could connect with people. Nowadays, I am ignored and...well yeah. I'm here too, so that explains one other thing the real world won't let me have XD;

I want to know one thing: Why is it that a guy's only intention seems to be getting in someone's pants?

I've never been in a relationship [IRL or net] longer than 2 weeks to a month or so, because...well. People act one way then show their true colors, or they just want sex after the first date. It's distressing to the point of me not dating IRL since I was 17.

Of course....guys wouldn't be my only option..heh.

Ethed wrote:

(Insert something very similar to my High School experience here)

The amount of similarities between your story and mine is uncanny, Ethed. I had practically zero friends in school because their mentalities were exactly the same - just booze, parties, and what-I-did-to-my-boyfriend-last-night. XP They talked about it so openly, how drunk they got and so on...I fear for my generation. =( I also found it easier to connect with adults or at least older people online, but overall I've had zero real-life friends 'til now.

We didn't have a yearbook thing at my school, thankfully. A few people (half-heartedly) signed mine, but it's stuffed in a drawer at home somewhere to be forgotten about. I only haven't burned it so if I see it again, I can look back on that chapter of my life and say that I survived.

The people at my school were just as heartless as yours, from the sound of it. To give you guys an idea, I once had to get off my bus because it broke down outside the school. Crossing the road, I tripped - there was a car stopped because I was in the way, and I couldn't get up. I tried, and fell over again. NOBODY stopped to help - I got a few glances, but no, nothing. When I did finally get to my feet, I had to walk all the way to the other side of the school, limping with a twisted knee, and my hands bleeding from when I'd tried to stop myself. I met other people on the way - nobody even asked if I was alright, and some boys laughed at me when my knee gave out and I nearly fell again. Getting to class took me an hour.

There's also a countless list of other things, including people throwing lit firecrackers, rotten fruit, spare change, and spitting at me. And yet the school threatened to call the police on me after I pushed someone who would pick on me constantly, after he tried to take my chair.

So, yeah. High School = HELL, plain and simple. Ethed, I know how you feel. And you were the CR member I mentioned before, in that I respected you but didn't have the guts to PM you. I thought you were a lot older than 18 - your intelligence and wisdom amaze me, I think you're a great person, and I hope we can talk more.

If you decide to go to university, trust me, it is SO much better. Because you have to take responsibility for your own learning, you don't get people messing around in classes and bullying you. That said, I'd think just getting a job would be better than High School...the real world is awesome, compared to that self-contained hell.

I want to know one thing: Why is it that a guy's only intention seems to be getting in someone's pants?

See now...I don't know why I seem to attract that kind of person. I'm not even that flirty...and if I do flirt I don't know that I am. >>;
I don't know why my state sucks either, or why said state can't leave virgins alooooooonnnnnnnnne.

Detectiiiive. Just be the friend first. Eventually whoever it is will show herself. :3

Well one has to have hope. That's what my mom tells me.

(Insert wall of text here - no problem, just don't want to make people scroll down a lot ^^;; )

Author:	DetectiveTomDamron [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 1:54 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
throws Yuu-chan an electric blanket even if this baby isnt plugged in it never gets cold and its always warm Now I gotta go have fun guys and gals

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 1:56 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Aw thank you! -Takes blankie, plugs in and huddles up in it- ^_^ Bye bye Mr. Detective~

Author:	Brandon Strong [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 3:33 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Sweet jeebus this topic grows at a frightening rate...I believe I posted yesterday, which is now about two pages ago...hmm, I dont know what to say. I dont feel that it would be right to comment on how you guys are doing without first talking a bit about myself. So I guess I should start with an introduction. I'm Brandon Strong (not my real name but it works), I'm fifteen, and I have had one girlfriend, but that relationship really didnt go so well. Like, at all. I still feel bad about how I handled it, but that's who I am. Anyway, I dont trust anyone enough to start a relationship with them, even though I have had numerous opportunities since then but I figure that by senior year all of the girls who will ever like me will have tried and given up...so thats that. On the other side of the spectrum, my class only has one out gay guy, whom I find to be an embarrassment to the male gender and unless he were to take up a sport I doubt that I will ever be interested in. Basically, I'm single and very much a loser. I just dont know if this society has room for me, so here I am.

Author:	raiku [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 3:34 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Ethed wrote: Hello Society. I didn't think I would ever want to whine to forum people about RL issues, especially not so soon, but here I come bearing the story of my shit day :( I've attempted sleeping most of it away, I've had a longer talk to my mom, but I still can't shrug it off by usual means. I'm nearing my graduation from - well ... it's the highest form of pre-Uni education here so I wouldn't call it a regular high school. Almost six months and I'm out of the slaughterhouse. Let me tell you, I've almost always disliked school. I'm worse than Maggey Byrde, the worst things happen to me, I get blamed for many things, I land in the most awkward scenarios. I get randomly beaten up on the street, sued over stuff I didn't do, break bones at any given chance, get sick a LOT lot, and the list goes on and on. I could never find myself truly fitting in with people my age, either, which is why from age 12 on I've reached out for contact with adults, mostly on the internet. I am now 18 years old. Going back to today, the students here organise their graduation and everything related (some type of yearbook and a shitload of events. Christmas events, carnival events, spring balls, prom etc. etc. etc., all of which I have to attend as a musician. I get grades for performances. Believe me I'd skip them without hesitating a single second otherwise) themselves, and the crucial part here is the yearbook. After a day of embarrassing myself in class repeatedly (or, rather, being embarrassed by the professor - for not being able to answer a handful questions because I was sick and could not attend the previous literature class), I was asked to retype a handwritten exam. One of my teachers asked me to do so, as I'd written it with 'inappropriate device' - a biro instead of an ink pen. Big fucking deal :) My right wrist is broken and I'm having a hard type writing with my hand. Not that you can't read my handwriting, for a broken wrist that's about as perfectly readable as it can get, but she's a sarcastic piece of arsepie. Thankfully, she lets me type it in the end. Underneath the keys of the laptop I was given however, algae are growing and long lost organisms are seemingly resurrected. Hell, even a unicorn might've poked through the screen anytime, so dirty was it. I finish, bring back the laptop - just in order to once again get humiliated in front of class. Back to the yearbook. Students were asked to fill out a form on themselves, then comment on every other student of your year for it. I couldn't help but browse some of the lists. Not to see what's written about me, but to see what people are writing about each other. I was shocked. I felt grossed out. These comments are meant to appear in a yearbook, something you open every five years, look back and remember the so-called good times. The comments were hideous. Many labelled themselves 'lovely', 'nice', 'tolerant' and 'open-minded' whereas they put "Your grey vest looks SHIT!!", "is an arrogant twat", "utter slut", "embarrasses himself daily", "chews her nails..disgusting!!!" next to other students' names. I felt so ridiculous..I..I've even found only good things to say about complete beasts. It probably doesn't sound like such a big deal, but little Ethed's severely distorted image of the world just broke further, and I feel like beating all of them up. Especially when they smile at you face to face, then throw bloody shuriken at your back. I suppose I can be happy I'll never have to see them again after graduating, but I just can't shake this off. It's like discovering a rumor. Fucking kindergarten... I feel so hurt. Unfortunately that's not all that happened today, but this post is long enough already :( tldr kek there's more stories of hospitals and family problems but that's enough for now Teenage drama? I know. holy shit my yearbook was a piece of shit as well, they topok out my quote below my senior pic because the people in there hatred me and i never did anything wrong to them. my quote was "you cant call it a coin without a tails." something that i came up with. it means you cant have the bad with the good. and then there was the eidolon that i was a part of. the bitch who was president of it made it so only her friend's art and writings would be put in it. anything else she deemed crappy, espesially my writings, hell the stuff i submitted i was told by my english teacher(who founded it) that it was material best suited for that.

Author:	Kaili [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 4:57 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
U-uhm... h-hiya everyone. My name's Crystal, but you can call me whatever you want, so long as you point to me or something so I know who you're talking to. I'm a 17 year old female Single Loser. My problem is, I have a... really hard time trusting people. I have a lot of reasons, but... I'm... not sure I'm willing or able to talk about them here. No offense to you guys, but yeah... I'm just... really inept at talking to people and trusting, even online. Er... is there a discount for life-long memberships? If so, sign me up. n_n; I'm not goin' anywhere anytime soon...

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Author:	Brandon Strong [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:08 am ]
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Kaili wrote: U-uhm... h-hiya everyone. My name's Crystal, but you can call me whatever you want, so long as you point to me or something so I know who you're talking to. I'm a 17 year old female Single Loser. My problem is, I have a... really hard time trusting people. I have a lot of reasons, but... I'm... not sure I'm willing or able to talk about them here. No offense to you guys, but yeah... I'm just... really inept at talking to people and trusting, even online. Er... is there a discount for life-long memberships? If so, sign me up. n_n; I'm not goin' anywhere anytime soon... You sound just like me. Exactly like me. Like you could be me in female form.

Author:	Super Muffin [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:10 am ]
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@Kaili-Hey! Welcome to the SLS RP. Sit down, have some food, talk, y'know, the usual stuff. I hope that you can find some people to talk to here, but if you don't want to, that's fine too. More of your choice than anything. (Feel free to ignore me if I'm being intrusive. I have a tendancy to do that sometimes. And luckily, membership is free. I'd be scared of going into debt if it wasn't...seeing as how chances are I'm going to be here a long time.)

Author:	Kyo Kusanagi [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:17 am ]
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Some people are harsh, like Insho! I hate that I met a guy like him here!!!

Author:	Kaili [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:32 am ]
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Err, thanks for making me feel welcome, guys and gals. ^^; I... I appreciate it, I really do! Uhm... -offers everyone cake- ^^; Er, Kyo... is it alright if I ask what exactly happened with Insho, or is that too personal and I'm being intrusive?

Author:	dullahan1 [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:35 am ]
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gives Kaili a plate of cookies Welcome! I hope you feel comfortable hanging around with the rest of us losers! jk. Don't you think you're gonna be the only one here with the whole lifetime membership though! I'm gonna be here right beside you! again, jk.... I hope! @Kyo: I'm curious too as to what happened. If I'm prying too much, you don't have to tell me.

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:40 am ]
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Mmm cookieeesss. -cough- Yeah anyway. Welcome to our humble thread. 8D

Author:	raiku [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:46 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Kaili wrote: Err, thanks for making me feel welcome, guys and gals. ^^; I... I appreciate it, I really do! Uhm... -offers everyone cake- ^^; Er, Kyo... is it alright if I ask what exactly happened with Insho, or is that too personal and I'm being intrusive? dont be scared...

Author:	Kyo Kusanagi [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 6:00 am ]
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Read his reply here: viewtopic.php?f=25&t=4561&p=240997#p240997

Author:	raiku [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 6:21 am ]
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dont let it get to you hell win if you do

Author:	Ethed [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 8:25 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
raiku wrote: Ethed wrote: Hello Society. I didn't think I would ever want to whine to forum people about RL issues, especially not so soon, but here I come bearing the story of my shit day :( I've attempted sleeping most of it away, I've had a longer talk to my mom, but I still can't shrug it off by usual means. I'm nearing my graduation from - well ... it's the highest form of pre-Uni education here so I wouldn't call it a regular high school. Almost six months and I'm out of the slaughterhouse. Let me tell you, I've almost always disliked school. I'm worse than Maggey Byrde, the worst things happen to me, I get blamed for many things, I land in the most awkward scenarios. I get randomly beaten up on the street, sued over stuff I didn't do, break bones at any given chance, get sick a LOT lot, and the list goes on and on. I could never find myself truly fitting in with people my age, either, which is why from age 12 on I've reached out for contact with adults, mostly on the internet. I am now 18 years old. Going back to today, the students here organise their graduation and everything related (some type of yearbook and a shitload of events. Christmas events, carnival events, spring balls, prom etc. etc. etc., all of which I have to attend as a musician. I get grades for performances. Believe me I'd skip them without hesitating a single second otherwise) themselves, and the crucial part here is the yearbook. After a day of embarrassing myself in class repeatedly (or, rather, being embarrassed by the professor - for not being able to answer a handful questions because I was sick and could not attend the previous literature class), I was asked to retype a handwritten exam. One of my teachers asked me to do so, as I'd written it with 'inappropriate device' - a biro instead of an ink pen. Big fucking deal :) My right wrist is broken and I'm having a hard type writing with my hand. Not that you can't read my handwriting, for a broken wrist that's about as perfectly readable as it can get, but she's a sarcastic piece of arsepie. Thankfully, she lets me type it in the end. Underneath the keys of the laptop I was given however, algae are growing and long lost organisms are seemingly resurrected. Hell, even a unicorn might've poked through the screen anytime, so dirty was it. I finish, bring back the laptop - just in order to once again get humiliated in front of class. Back to the yearbook. Students were asked to fill out a form on themselves, then comment on every other student of your year for it. I couldn't help but browse some of the lists. Not to see what's written about me, but to see what people are writing about each other. I was shocked. I felt grossed out. These comments are meant to appear in a yearbook, something you open every five years, look back and remember the so-called good times. The comments were hideous. Many labelled themselves 'lovely', 'nice', 'tolerant' and 'open-minded' whereas they put "Your grey vest looks SHIT!!", "is an arrogant twat", "utter slut", "embarrasses himself daily", "chews her nails..disgusting!!!" next to other students' names. I felt so ridiculous..I..I've even found only good things to say about complete beasts. It probably doesn't sound like such a big deal, but little Ethed's severely distorted image of the world just broke further, and I feel like beating all of them up. Especially when they smile at you face to face, then throw bloody shuriken at your back. I suppose I can be happy I'll never have to see them again after graduating, but I just can't shake this off. It's like discovering a rumor. Fucking kindergarten... I feel so hurt. Unfortunately that's not all that happened today, but this post is long enough already :( tldr kek there's more stories of hospitals and family problems but that's enough for now Teenage drama? I know. holy shit my yearbook was a piece of shit as well, they topok out my quote below my senior pic because the people in there hatred me and i never did anything wrong to them. my quote was "you cant call it a coin without a tails." something that i came up with. it means you cant have the bad with the good. and then there was the eidolon that i was a part of. the bitch who was president of it made it so only her friend's art and writings would be put in it. anything else she deemed crappy, espesially my writings, hell the stuff i submitted i was told by my english teacher(who founded it) that it was material best suited for that. Yeah. Originally me and a friend signed up for it, and suddenly the list was not only filled by other people/bitchz, we also got pushed out - without notice. People without layout knowledge or how a yearbook's supposed to look. For all I know they may scan in some handwritten stuff and reprint it a hundred stuff for all students. And that's not badmouthing, unfortunately, that's how it's always been when they have put themselves in charge. They managed to ruin one of our shows/gigs by assuming the roles of moderators, and I mean ruin. Never done anything wrong to people either. The mentality of most students here doesn't reach beyond parties, alcohol and a new relationship every other week. Since that's not me, I'm having a hard time. Also, intelligence (not that I claim any XD) is looked down upon.

Author:	Konkmeister [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 10:14 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Wow. Thank Vishnu my school doesn't do yearbooks.

Author:	KingMobUK [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 10:57 am ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Kyo Kusanagi wrote: :edgeworth: Read his reply here: http://www.forums.court-records.net/vie ... 97#p240997 I think it's safe to say that Insho was just joking. I've never seen him/her be mean deliberately on here but s/he is pretty amusing usually. Ethed - school sucks. i couldn't wait to get the fuck out and I never looked back.

Author:	Nego [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 1:27 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
raiku wrote: my yearbook was a piece of shit as well, they topok out my quote below my senior pic because the people in there hatred me and i never did anything wrong to them. my quote was "you cant call it a coin without a tails." something that i came up with. it means you cant have the bad with the good. and then there was the eidolon that i was a part of. the bitch who was president of it made it so only her friend's art and writings would be put in it. anything else she deemed crappy, espesially my writings, hell the stuff i submitted i was told by my english teacher(who founded it) that it was material best suited for that. Some people really can be referred to as a-holes. Last year it was my third year at the high school, which means it's the last unless you decide to be lazy and take another extra year (like I did). So, we had this thing called abi-show (abi means person on the third grade). In the end of the show, there was some pictures of the three years we had spend at the school. This really came as a shock to me, because for example I wasn't asked for any pics, nor was my friends. Every pic there was on the screen was taken of about 6 people at their home parties. I was like 'what the' although it didn't come as a suprise as the "head gang" of our school organized the whole thing. Kaili wrote: U-uhm... h-hiya everyone. My name's Crystal, but you can call me whatever you want, so long as you point to me or something so I know who you're talking to. I'm a 17 year old female Single Loser. My problem is, I have a... really hard time trusting people. I have a lot of reasons, but... I'm... not sure I'm willing or able to talk about them here. No offense to you guys, but yeah... I'm just... really inept at talking to people and trusting, even online. Er... is there a discount for life-long memberships? If so, sign me up. n_n; I'm not goin' anywhere anytime soon... Hello and welcome! Director Hotti is happy to see more faces around here. I understand you completely. I'm really a shy guy and I don't like to talk about my stuff with people I know. For some reason, I can do it perfectly fine on the Internet to people I don't know in the real life. I actually had big doubts about talking with my friend about the girl I find interesting but I decided to do it after he told me about his crush. It's still hard and we really never talk about it anymore. But if you decided to talk about those things here, I'm more than happy to ~~listen~~ read.

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 3:57 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Good day everyone :>

Author:	Kyo Kusanagi [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 4:07 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
I've been feeling better after opening a new thread viewtopic.php?f=10&t=5075&p=241519#p241519 with my cousin's photo collection. After modding the image, it cheered me up a bit as my cousin threw in some effects to the mod photo. You can comment on the character(s) featured in that topic then.... That piece of evidence is related to this topic for some people..... heheheheh! Let's see if the guy or gal noticed the evidence

Author:	Wocky Kitaki [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:06 pm ]
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Yuu-chan wrote: Good day everyone :> Hello Yuu-Chan.

Author:	raiku [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:09 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Ethed wrote: raiku wrote: Ethed wrote: Hello Society. I didn't think I would ever want to whine to forum people about RL issues, especially not so soon, but here I come bearing the story of my shit day :( I've attempted sleeping most of it away, I've had a longer talk to my mom, but I still can't shrug it off by usual means. I'm nearing my graduation from - well ... it's the highest form of pre-Uni education here so I wouldn't call it a regular high school. Almost six months and I'm out of the slaughterhouse. Let me tell you, I've almost always disliked school. I'm worse than Maggey Byrde, the worst things happen to me, I get blamed for many things, I land in the most awkward scenarios. I get randomly beaten up on the street, sued over stuff I didn't do, break bones at any given chance, get sick a LOT lot, and the list goes on and on. I could never find myself truly fitting in with people my age, either, which is why from age 12 on I've reached out for contact with adults, mostly on the internet. I am now 18 years old. Going back to today, the students here organise their graduation and everything related (some type of yearbook and a shitload of events. Christmas events, carnival events, spring balls, prom etc. etc. etc., all of which I have to attend as a musician. I get grades for performances. Believe me I'd skip them without hesitating a single second otherwise) themselves, and the crucial part here is the yearbook. After a day of embarrassing myself in class repeatedly (or, rather, being embarrassed by the professor - for not being able to answer a handful questions because I was sick and could not attend the previous literature class), I was asked to retype a handwritten exam. One of my teachers asked me to do so, as I'd written it with 'inappropriate device' - a biro instead of an ink pen. Big fucking deal :) My right wrist is broken and I'm having a hard type writing with my hand. Not that you can't read my handwriting, for a broken wrist that's about as perfectly readable as it can get, but she's a sarcastic piece of arsepie. Thankfully, she lets me type it in the end. Underneath the keys of the laptop I was given however, algae are growing and long lost organisms are seemingly resurrected. Hell, even a unicorn might've poked through the screen anytime, so dirty was it. I finish, bring back the laptop - just in order to once again get humiliated in front of class. Back to the yearbook. Students were asked to fill out a form on themselves, then comment on every other student of your year for it. I couldn't help but browse some of the lists. Not to see what's written about me, but to see what people are writing about each other. I was shocked. I felt grossed out. These comments are meant to appear in a yearbook, something you open every five years, look back and remember the so-called good times. The comments were hideous. Many labelled themselves 'lovely', 'nice', 'tolerant' and 'open-minded' whereas they put "Your grey vest looks SHIT!!", "is an arrogant twat", "utter slut", "embarrasses himself daily", "chews her nails..disgusting!!!" next to other students' names. I felt so ridiculous..I..I've even found only good things to say about complete beasts. It probably doesn't sound like such a big deal, but little Ethed's severely distorted image of the world just broke further, and I feel like beating all of them up. Especially when they smile at you face to face, then throw bloody shuriken at your back. I suppose I can be happy I'll never have to see them again after graduating, but I just can't shake this off. It's like discovering a rumor. Fucking kindergarten... I feel so hurt. Unfortunately that's not all that happened today, but this post is long enough already :( tldr kek there's more stories of hospitals and family problems but that's enough for now Teenage drama? I know. holy shit my yearbook was a piece of shit as well, they topok out my quote below my senior pic because the people in there hatred me and i never did anything wrong to them. my quote was "you cant call it a coin without a tails." something that i came up with. it means you cant have the bad with the good. and then there was the eidolon that i was a part of. the bitch who was president of it made it so only her friend's art and writings would be put in it. anything else she deemed crappy, espesially my writings, hell the stuff i submitted i was told by my english teacher(who founded it) that it was material best suited for that. Yeah. Originally me and a friend signed up for it, and suddenly the list was not only filled by other people/bitchz, we also got pushed out - without notice. People without layout knowledge or how a yearbook's supposed to look. For all I know they may scan in some handwritten stuff and reprint it a hundred stuff for all students. And that's not badmouthing, unfortunately, that's how it's always been when they have put themselves in charge. They managed to ruin one of our shows/gigs by assuming the roles of moderators, and I mean ruin. Never done anything wrong to people either. The mentality of most students here doesn't reach beyond parties, alcohol and a new relationship every other week. Since that's not me, I'm having a hard time. Also, intelligence (not that I claim any XD) is looked down upon. actually, intelligence was looked upon in my school, but only if you were in the honors classes, i had one of the most brilliant minds in my school(my film teacher said that, so did my forensics teacher) yet since i was in remidial classes(i was a slow learner) other students never cared what i said

Author:	ExImplode07 [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 5:39 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Ethed wrote: (Insert something very similar to my High School experience here) The amount of similarities between your story and mine is uncanny, Ethed. I had practically zero friends in school because their mentalities were exactly the same - just booze, parties, and what-I-did-to-my-boyfriend-last-night. XP They talked about it so openly, how drunk they got and so on...I fear for my generation. =( I also found it easier to connect with adults or at least older people online, but overall I've had zero real-life friends 'til now. We didn't have a yearbook thing at my school, thankfully. A few people (half-heartedly) signed mine, but it's stuffed in a drawer at home somewhere to be forgotten about. I only haven't burned it so if I see it again, I can look back on that chapter of my life and say that I survived. The people at my school were just as heartless as yours, from the sound of it. To give you guys an idea, I once had to get off my bus because it broke down outside the school. Crossing the road, I tripped - there was a car stopped because I was in the way, and I couldn't get up. I tried, and fell over again. NOBODY stopped to help - I got a few glances, but no, nothing. When I did finally get to my feet, I had to walk all the way to the other side of the school, limping with a twisted knee, and my hands bleeding from when I'd tried to stop myself. I met other people on the way - nobody even asked if I was alright, and some boys laughed at me when my knee gave out and I nearly fell again. Getting to class took me an hour. There's also a countless list of other things, including people throwing lit firecrackers, rotten fruit, spare change, and spitting at me. And yet the school threatened to call the police on me after I pushed someone who would pick on me constantly, after he tried to take my chair. So, yeah. High School = HELL, plain and simple. Ethed, I know how you feel. And you were the CR member I mentioned before, in that I respected you but didn't have the guts to PM you. I thought you were a lot older than 18 - your intelligence and wisdom amaze me, I think you're a great person, and I hope we can talk more. If you decide to go to university, trust me, it is SO much better. Because you have to take responsibility for your own learning, you don't get people messing around in classes and bullying you. That said, I'd think just getting a job would be better than High School...the real world is awesome, compared to that self-contained hell.

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:04 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
D: The real world...at least where I am, isn't so great. I wish I was back in high school, because then I could connect with people. Nowadays, I am ignored and...well yeah. I'm here too, so that explains one other thing the real world won't let me have XD; I want to know one thing: Why is it that a guy's only intention seems to be getting in someone's pants? I've never been in a relationship [IRL or net] longer than 2 weeks to a month or so, because...well. People act one way then show their true colors, or they just want sex after the first date. It's distressing to the point of me not dating IRL since I was 17. Of course....guys wouldn't be my only option..heh.

Author:	raiku [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:19 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Yuu-chan wrote: D: The real world...at least where I am, isn't so great. I wish I was back in high school, because then I could connect with people. Nowadays, I am ignored and...well yeah. I'm here too, so that explains one other thing the real world won't let me have XD; I want to know one thing: Why is it that a guy's only intention seems to be getting in someone's pants? I've never been in a relationship [IRL or net] longer than 2 weeks to a month or so, because...well. People act one way then show their true colors, or they just want sex after the first date. It's distressing to the point of me not dating IRL since I was 17. Of course....guys wouldn't be my only option..heh. im not one of those guys, im not kidding. id just like a hug first date+ im only ready when she is

Author:	Ethed [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:23 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
ExImplode07 wrote: Ethed wrote: (Insert something very similar to my High School experience here) The amount of similarities between your story and mine is uncanny, Ethed. I had practically zero friends in school because their mentalities were exactly the same - just booze, parties, and what-I-did-to-my-boyfriend-last-night. XP They talked about it so openly, how drunk they got and so on...I fear for my generation. =( I also found it easier to connect with adults or at least older people online, but overall I've had zero real-life friends 'til now. We didn't have a yearbook thing at my school, thankfully. A few people (half-heartedly) signed mine, but it's stuffed in a drawer at home somewhere to be forgotten about. I only haven't burned it so if I see it again, I can look back on that chapter of my life and say that I survived. The people at my school were just as heartless as yours, from the sound of it. To give you guys an idea, I once had to get off my bus because it broke down outside the school. Crossing the road, I tripped - there was a car stopped because I was in the way, and I couldn't get up. I tried, and fell over again. NOBODY stopped to help - I got a few glances, but no, nothing. When I did finally get to my feet, I had to walk all the way to the other side of the school, limping with a twisted knee, and my hands bleeding from when I'd tried to stop myself. I met other people on the way - nobody even asked if I was alright, and some boys laughed at me when my knee gave out and I nearly fell again. Getting to class took me an hour. There's also a countless list of other things, including people throwing lit firecrackers, rotten fruit, spare change, and spitting at me. And yet the school threatened to call the police on me after I pushed someone who would pick on me constantly, after he tried to take my chair. So, yeah. High School = HELL, plain and simple. Ethed, I know how you feel. And you were the CR member I mentioned before, in that I respected you but didn't have the guts to PM you. I thought you were a lot older than 18 - your intelligence and wisdom amaze me, I think you're a great person, and I hope we can talk more. If you decide to go to university, trust me, it is SO much better. Because you have to take responsibility for your own learning, you don't get people messing around in classes and bullying you. That said, I'd think just getting a job would be better than High School...the real world is awesome, compared to that self-contained hell. Wall of text incoming. :( Sorry You know.. I hate to sound like a bathtub full of angst, but I've had a pretty messed up childhood. My parents have always been good to me - at least their actions turned out to form a crucial part of who I am today, and I can't begin to thank them for this - but never my surroundings. This is about my 20th (and last) school because we've been moving from town to town, mainly due to one of my brothers' asthma. I've gotten to know so many people, the spectrum of personalities is immense- and the patterns are repetitive. I realised that around sixth grade, and went on studying these patterns for years, went on to even mathematically modelling the information content of rumor propagation (only the ones affected will understand what a powerful effect rumors have on perceptions of even large networks.. the ones you face in school are mostly of slanderous, defamatory nature. I've yet to hear more than five good things a year about me), and finally, I have enough of it all. Gathering information and educating yourself (school provides an excellent scenario for this - where else are you force-fed such compressed social education? Possibly the internet, but online it is a lot easier to simply escape) is good as long as you can deal with it, but anything now has the potential to break the camel's back. I've blamed myself for years.. long years, and even today - as you can read from my original post - I take personal offense from a dysfunctional world. I've listed a very small portion of what's bugging me just in school.. I hate to be occupying several pages in this thread, but I was hoping to find somebody who can relate, since.. I know I'm not the only one suffering in school. I relate to your lines too well. I have a few 'friends' in real life, none that would stand up for me though should I be in severe trouble. My parents have no real friends (the type that you call and visit loads, the type that help you when you're facing difficult shit in life) for the same reason. Looking at the current state of this generation, though, I don't mind that so much. I walk home Friday evening and forget school for a weekend long. I don't wake up Saturday morning with a giant hangover and have no memory of the previous night. I wake up, make myself breakfast, work out some and chuck myself in the corner with a sketchbook, my DS, an instrument or some work. Don't get me wrong - I don't despise alcohol or parties! I'd just hate doing it with the wrong people, and knowing I won't see most of my schoolmates' faces again post-school (yay!), I don't even want to try anymore. I won't meet their acceptance. I've had similar experiences as you. Yet, hearing how you're treated just.. breaks my heart. In second grade (I was six, maybe seven), children threw (not pushed, threw) me down stairs, when I had enough broken bones due to 'accidents', they kicked me out of the wheelchair, beat me up in PE, stole my coat mid-winter and more (how all of this could happen I don't fully understand myself today, and why nobody acted). They wouldn't just stand and look, they'd point, laugh, hop on the bandwagon, join in and land a few strikes. I..didn't know where to put this, but on a more personal note -- your attention flatters me. A lot. I had no idea when I replied to the first time you brought up you respected someone from the forums. I..don't know where to place myself on the forums yet; I enjoy the community a lot and hope to make friends eventually. I pull off a pretty stable appearance nowadays, online and offline, I think (..not very convincing after this post, is it?) - carry your heart on the outside and risk having people scrape it off, I suppose. It's something I still have to fully accept, though. To add to the social trouble, this country's educational system is SO wrong that any course is now "Advanced", and "Advanced" now means "Uni level". In the end however, in just six months, I'll be reduced to a single number, a degree - a rather numbing thought, but once all is over.. I'll breathe again.

Author:	Nego [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:26 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Yuu-chan wrote: I want to know one thing: Why is it that a guy's only intention seems to be getting in someone's pants? I don't really understand why it seems that way. I'm myself one of those who doesn't really want to have sex with random people. I want to wait until I find the right one for me and then do it after we've been married. Or at least a really long time because that shows me that the girl I'm going to share my life isn't with me just to get sex, but because she really loves me. Sex isn't everything afterall.

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:44 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
See now...I don't know why I seem to attract that kind of person. I'm not even that flirty...and if I do flirt I don't know that I am. >>; I don't know why my state sucks either, or why said state can't leave virgins alooooooonnnnnnnnne. Detectiiiive. Just be the friend first. Eventually whoever it is will show herself. :3

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:46 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
You will. :3

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:50 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Well one has to have hope. That's what my mom tells me.

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:56 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
That you will. And I neglected to say hi to Takita :< so...HIII :>

Author:	ExImplode07 [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 8:49 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
Ethed wrote: (Insert wall of text here - no problem, just don't want to make people scroll down a lot ^^;; ) And my own wall of text... It's weird, how I always seem to find a connection with people who have their own social issues. It can be hard, to talk about things openly, and accept that other people have been through similar battlefields. Rumours plagued me for a while. Someone once spread around that I was borderline psychotic...I have minor learning difficulties, but nothing that extreme. Looking back, I think the root of the problem was the school's support was good in theory, but put into practice, it just wasn't practical. Having an adult with me at all times, like a bodyguard (actually to help with work), and my occasional fits of rage from bullying, probably spawned that rumour. The majority of abuse I received at school was mental/emotional rather than physical. My family life has been pretty screwed up too, partially thanks to an accident my dad had, which leaves him prone to fits of rage (not his fault). It breaks my heart to hear of your physical abuse, but like I said up there, it takes guts to talk about this sort of thing openly with people. It can be difficult to find someone who understands or cares. Heck, it's hard to find someone who cares about social issues - here in England we have problems with binge drinking and vandalism. Our school systems are pretty bad, too. My brother goes to a supposedly good school, and when I help him with his work, he says he learns more from me than from his teachers. I don't go drinking or to parties myself...class + hangover = no thanks. I've been to classes sick - that's bad enough. I guess I do similar things to you. I do work, go to the uni's anime club, I play on my DS, listen to music, go on here, write stories. I guess we both have our share of battle-scars. We're both a bit more world-weary...I don't trust people as much as I used to, that's for sure. I'm not really sure what to say to your flattery...but...I guess it's 'cause I think that's the truth. I got the impression that you were a minor legend around CR, from your lengthy (and fascinating) literature reviews, and other comments. And I was shocked when you said English isn't your first language...you use it more elegantly than a lot of native speakers I know. I know what's left of my German certainly isn't up to standards like that. ^^;; So yeah...sorry if I made you blush or anything. But I tend to speak my mind. XD;; If you weren't all the way in Germany (which I take you are - Kristophland, lol XD), I think you'd be a cool person to talk to. You sound like you have a lot of stories to tell, not necessarily all of them sad...hopefully doing your degree, whatever it is, might give you some more happy ones. ^^

Author:	ImAFoolishFool [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 9:20 pm ]
Post subject:	Re: Single Losers Society RP
..... Is it twisted & evil to be happy that there are people who are kinda having the same problems as me? I mean, of course I don't like seeing people feel like this, but I sure am happy that I'm not alone... Even though I knew I couldn't be the only person ever to have love life problems, it sure did feel like that a hell of a lot of the time ;_; hugs all SLS RP people ^_^

Author:	Yuu-chan [ Tue Nov 20, 2007 9:26 pm ]
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lol I don't think so. It's better to have a common bond than be out of the loop...