Have you ever had a moment in life where you ever wished that you could just go back and relive it, just so you could maybe correct whatever it was you messed up during that time? Maybe change your past, make a different decision instead of the one you regretted, maybe wonder where you'd be in life now if you would have taken a different choice? I figure most people have had times where they felt that way and I figure here we could discuss them. Whether it may have been a bad choice you made in life, or an opportunity you let go to waste, I'll ask here, have you ever had a moment in life where you wish you could have had a do over?

I guess for me, I'd say if I knew how hard it was to get a teaching job for me, I really might have reconsidered changing my major in college if I could have foreseen the job market getting tough. Might have considered going for an art degree, that way I could go into something else that I'm also passionate about (still love teaching too, it's just I'm not getting to do it!) and I'd probably be a way better artist than I am now!

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A few, although the things that went most wrong with my life were sadly out of my control, so there was nothing I could have done to prevent them.

One thing I wish I could change is how I lost contact to a very close friend of mine who (from rumors I've heard) apparently ended up killing herself in one of the worst ways possible after I lost contact. Back then people had no cell phones and she was a minor, so if I wanted to talk to her, I had to call her foster mom, which was awkward and caused me to not call very often in hopes that my friend would call me instead (sadly, she felt just as awkward talking to my family). In the end, when I finally did call again, I was informed that she had run away and nobody knew where she was. That was the last I heard of her until about a decade later, when another former friend told me the rest.
I wish I had called her more often and been informed enough to know what was troubling her. I never did learn what caused her to run away. :(

I also wish I could go back to last year and visit my father after Christmas. He couldn't come to celebrate with me because he had back pains, and he said he would call me so we could meet up another day, but he never called and once again I didn't call either. He died in early February and the last I had talked to him to wish him a happy new year. That year he would have gotten the biggest Christmas present. He never got it. :(
The odd(? right word?) thing is that other than for this issue, his death didn't really hit me very hard. We had talked about these things ages ago and I know thatv things were all clear between us. I just wish he could have gotten that one big Christmas present.

This is a common feeling amongst humans. But yeah, I got boat loads of them.

... Don't feel like talking about them at the moment~

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To about two years ago, deciding to not go through with the Cosmetician training and school. I would not have felt like wasting a year on stuff I won't use afterwards and can't technically work as anymore, simply because the smell of the lotions gives me a migraine. I would probably have looked fruitlessly for more work than before or hopefully gotten my jaw operation earlier.

To any time when I was in a school where I was bullied. Preferably with the knowledge of how to effectively shove someone's nasal cartalige (??) into their skull if they pissed me off. Would have probably kept me from being bullied in other schools, but would probably have given me some disciplinary school problems.

Overall to any point where I somehow ended up being introverted. Maybe redoing things would have gotten me to be more open and extroverted, resulting in friends so my mom would hopefully stop bugging me about not having friends. Although I'm quite okay with not having many friends.

C-A

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Everything that's happened to me, be it good or bad, has helped shape me into the man I am today. For example, my family didn't think too much of my psychological problems until I attempted suicide. After that, I received psychiatric help which got me on the path to recovery. It's both good things and bad things that make us who we are, and I wouldn't change anything about my past.

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And so the topics on CR continue on the downwards spiral of misery and sad reflections.

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=/ That honestly wasn't my intention. I figured that do-overs could be for something good or bad. I guess a lot of people are just having it rough right now. =(

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I wish I would've been more social in middle-school. My reputation was that I was the guy who sucked at sports and it affected me a lot. I didn't realise it was a problem until I got more self-aware and I started feeling very oppressed because it was a role I didn't know how to get out of because by then everyone in my class did sports all the time, and I was just a dork at sports. It has affected me a lot ever since. I'm generally not happy with sports like soccer or basket, though I did enjoy badminton once.

But in a lot of ways I've just been shooting myself in the foot a lot of times by refusing to do social stuff, because I was too embarrassed to reveal I sucked at sports when meeting new people. I'm not the happiest person in the world right now, but I do have local friends and I am happy with what I've got. But still I wish I'd done something in the past to just go with the flow and not become the black sheep I was since I think it would've made me a more outgoing person than what I've become.

But this shouldn't mean I can never change. In fact this is something that's been running in my family kinda :P My uncle once told me he was the fat kid in school and everyone bullied him for being bad at almost everything, but then at an age of 18 he was enlisted to do military service and that changed him forever. When he told me that he was the dork in school I couldn't believe it at first :)

But my story was probably also affected by the fact that my father died of cancer in 2005 when I was only 11 years old, and it changed a lot of things for me psychologically. I didn't get depressed, but when I returned to school it just wasn't the same. I couldn't cope with how life just went on and everyone was all joking about silly stuff while I just saw my dad die in the hospital. I also started taking their jokes personal and I just think I became very introverted since then.

And even though I've got it worked out it can be hard for me to open up about the fact that my dad has died when I'm talking to friends. I'm probably moving out soon though so I don't have to worry about it whenever I get new friends on visit. It's just the whole deal of "when do you tell your friend about this?" because I've tried once or twice where I just had to get it out since you can't avoid people noticing that they only see one of your parents at all times, but it got very awkward because the guy responded with... well, silence basically, and so I began to excuse all sorts of things like "Y-you don't have to say anything, i-it's just hard to let it in for so long and you've probably been wondering". You're often silly and goofy when you hang out with pals and sometimes it's hard to start such a serious topic but if you keep it to yourself you feel like you're irresponsible and cheating towards your friends. That's mainly why I need to get it out.

I still feel guilty thougt because I went to a "continuation school", something we have in denmark which is basically like college for 10th graders and I'm still friends with my two best buddies I met there, but I've never ever told them about it, and the issue is drifiting away since it's been so long, but I remember having them on visit in a weekend or two and they must've wondered why there were pictures of my dad but he was never there. I should've just said it, but it can be hard and awkward :P

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To me the topic title just reads: Think about what you've done wrong in life and regret the fact you could have done it better.

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Well, we now have my topic of happiness and thankfulness to balance it out. Both things are a part of life. The vent topic and this topic can both be seen as cathartic, no? I wouldn't worry, myself.

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I agree and I plan on posting there at some point as I consider my life pretty happy right now. I figure you can make a forum experience a positive or negative one depending on what you want out of it. You can easily ignore topics you don't want and invest in ones you do, which I love about it. =)

I will say one thing that I always wished that I could have done back in high school was participate in theatre. I had a fleeting interest in it growing up and as a child, I used to want to get into voice acting. I honestly don't know if I'd be passionate about it now, I still think acting is fun, but I'm curious how things would have gone if I had invested more time in it. Would my interest have grown or waned? It's something I do like to think about at times.

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Just thought of my last year in High School, 10th Grade.
I was part of the school band since I started that school, 7th Grade, and I was pretty much the only singer for two years as the other girl dropped out during the first year and then a new 7th Grader came in during my last year. She pretty much took my spot, although I know it wasn't really my spot. Still felt a bit like it, because I had been the singer in two performances at my school by that point.
Point is, I feel like I should redo that part and be more assertive.
She sang the songs and, due to somehow being incapable of singing into a microphone after a visit to a concentration camp in November, I just didn't really participate anymore. I still came to the weekly meetings, but mostly just stood at the door and didn't sing.

I guess I shot myself in the foot a bit, because part of me realized that I hated the songs I had to sing on stage. And I wanted to perform at least one song with the band that I personally liked. The song I first attempted was No Doubt's Don't Speak, which I couldn't sing because it was too high for me. Another attempt was with Michelle's All You Wanted, which is when my voice somehow failed me. Or my brain with the singing.

Then I suggested two Japanese songs, mostly because by that point, I listened almost exclusively to Japanese music and was doing a good job at singing them as well. From Escaflowne Hikari no Naka He, I would have gladly sung the English translation. My other suggestion was Smile Smile from Fullmoon wo Sagashite. Point is, we never did any of the songs I suggested and I wasn't even on stage when the band performed on the day of graduation.

Uh, wait... I went off on a tangent there... what I mean was, I would like to redo that part and be more assertive in trying to get one of the songs I wanted to sing to get performed.

C-A

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